Realmess

Just a few things:

I had a very odd dream about Play-dough recently. The details are a bit fuzzy but I was an entrepreneur in some sense. There was also several ginormous containers of play-dough. I wish I could remember what I invented. I'm sure it was really cool.

I also had a dream recently in which I found over $150 in cash in a particularly unfrequented pocket of my purse. I was pretty happy about it... Until I realized it was a DREAM. Still, maybe it's a sign of things to come?

Finally, on a more conscious note, I'd like the realness to suffice. I'm not sure what this means anymore, as it was originally written in the wee hours of the morning in the Notes application on my phone. I hardly ever deem late night random thoughts worthy of being written down- because being tired causes a great deal of paralysis that I do not wish to fight- but I wrote this down. I have a vague idea of what I was thinking about when this thought seemed so brilliant, but I'm not positive. I'll have to think about it in depth very soon. The more entertaining part of the note was the fact that I accidentally wrote "realmess" instead of "realness"... God, I'm clever.

Crazyness in the Cerebellum

Finals, finals, finals.
I'm banking on the fact that my best work is a result of continual delirium.
Living in a dream-like trance- but not the ideal trance where one does not need to write ten page papers.

Maybe it's the recent massive increase in cumin consumption- I'd like to think it's a bit more than that.

My summer goal was to tap into all those leftover corners of my soul that have been left untouched. I wanted to read a lot and take care of myself. I guess those two things are happening but not in the way I would have liked. I have great hopes for the second half of summer though! Only three credits and a pile of books to make my heart feel new and smarter and bolder.

So, what's on your mind? Revelations trip me up both literally and figuratively- It's a particularly alarming book in the Bible after all. Do what's right with your heart.

There's a lot of hope in the unknown and newly admitted- truths and patients.

Where do we go from here? Keep living and loving and learning and know that there is a much larger force at work. Allow good things to move and dance and wiggle in your heart and see where it propels you.

I pray for whoever occupies that space in my heart- that he goes through God, that I find him, that he is happy, that I get it right on the first try.

It's all very sunshiney and magical, you know.