Koe Nun Drum

Well, I have a final tomorrow. I haven't studied. Nor have I read about half of the required readings. Shwoops. My mind has been stuck in a rut with King Tut like a mutt who couldn't.. cut it? Maybe.

I think I have a lot less patience than I had previously thought. I really need something or someone special and beautiful and wonderful to happen soon. That would be just swell. My family is beautiful. I haven't been in a relationship for almost a year. I have made the best of my 'bad' decisions this semester and have enjoyed them thoroughly. I think there will be more to come next semester. I am excited for new classes in the Spring. I'm not sure if you are supposed to capitalize the name of a season. There, their, they're, your, you're. Please don't fuck that up. I think I function more efficiently while in love. I miss that side of myself. I hate not being around children. I miss their perspective. I should probably start being more honest with myself on a daily basis. Life is really funny and weird. I wish I could sleep peacefully. I don't think I'm stressed out, but for some reason I have an absurd amount of tension hanging out in my body. I miss the physical aspect of a steady relationship. The not worrying about where someone has been part. And the knowing there's always someone on your team part. I've got some great friends.

I need this now. Thanks Senior Showcase :)

desiderata - by max ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.