So turns out I am a feeling chaser of sorts. My brain is a little congested, thought-wise not sinus-wise, and I took to thinking bout why that is. I don't have a definite answer as of yet. I mean it's, like, kind of a hard thing to figure out. I have feelings as to why or how this could be... I'm probably chasing them too.
The concept that inspiration is fleeting makes me fret hardcore. Like, woah.
Even though it's a fleeting fox, maybe there's enough of it to seem consistent? Maybe there's enough inspiration- of all kinds- to feed my little feeling speedometer. No, I'm asking.
Alls I'm saying is, the whole congestion, feeling chasing, inspiration needing phenomena are probably interconnected. They are at least second cousins. Feeling chasing may have been married in.
So how do you de-congest? I would like some mental Drano. Please? I feel like I'm floating- not in the SO COOL way. Not in the almost flying way. I'm just unable to touch the ground completely. I'm skimming through, not fully landing on a thing, just clearing everything on my path, by a hair.
Maybe it's a little bit of fear. The not wanting to connect to the web of interconnectedness.
Maybe it's focus. A focus that has landed far too selfishly on the future and forgot about its little sister, the present.
Oh, boy. I don't really know.
