I'm Still Here

I don't think you understand how hard it is for me to face your indifference. I want you to feel strongly one way or another. Obviously, I'd prefer one way over the other, but the point is the same. I have so much to say to you, but the fear of your reaction stops me in my tracks. I am holding our relationship together, all by myself. It's pretty heavy and completely stressful. I deal with that because I know you have a lot on your plate, a lot of pressure. You really don't give me enough credit. You take away a lot from me everyday, my energy, happiness, you name it. I tell myself you don't know that you're doing it, that my feelings should not be hurt. You're just reckless with my heart, whether you believe it or not. I want you to care, most of all to show it. Give me a sign you still want what we have because I'm really starting to doubt it. I know how easy it is for you to forget me when I'm away. I don't understand it. I just miss you and think of you more, while you carefully remove me from your thoughts, actions, and life. There's no excuse for that. It's selfish, really. I think you're going to take this the wrong way, but I really hope you don't. I want you to think about what I have to say to you, what I have said. Consider my feelings.