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Foreshadow: I think this may end up to be more rambly than cohesive. That's okay.

Everything is trying to escape out of that mental door at once, but subsequently each thing is getting stuck. Maybe I should just pull from the pile, you know?

I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but I like to brush my teeth with warm water. I hardly ever turn on the cold water in the bathroom- or any other room, really. Does that mean something? Probably not, but I always think about it when I'm in the act of brushing. I feel the need to confess that tiny detail of my life, so there you go.

Hold on a sec.

Okay, I just took off this blog address from my Facebook page. I'm so private. Just kidding. But seriously, I feel like this is in between needing to be just for myself and for the world to see... which means it's just for my friends... Hi, Lolo.

Life things:
Part I- People, Places, and Things
I'm moving in a very short while. The end of September to be exact, October 1st to be exacter. I still don't know entirely what I'm looking for, but I have a better understanding. I think guidance is a great thing, but there are times when you are guided to wing it and wing it I shall. I miss my friends more than ever. How spoiled we were to have ever lived in the same state as those that we love. Hard to give that up, but harder yet to ever get it back again. Maybe life will bring us to a similar location or maybe we'll start racking up frequent flyer miles. I do have unlimited talk and text, so that's the good news.

Part II- I Told Myself
And I keep telling myself a lot of things. I'm trying to dance around certain thoughts because I'm moderately uncomfortable discussing my romantic endeavors on the world wide web. A year can go by very quickly regardless of the correctness of your decisions or the people you spend that time with. I oopsidentally spent the past year with someone I shouldn't have, but it was also a major learning experience. I spent a year with a streetlamp.  It was valuable time spent in a sense- as in I won't do it again, but it was also a year... and that's hard to grasp. I'm only 23 and each year seems so vast. Time is flying now, in a way it never has before and the thought of a year long lesson seems so harsh. A whole year, you know? I forgot what it felt like to have a good old fashioned school girl crush on someone. Maybe I thought I outgrew those feelings, but I didn't and that's a good thing. Chemistry varies with every unique individual in your life. There are people who I feel so electric around and then there are those who make me feel sedated. Then there's the romantic chemistry part of things and connections you were never aware of just waiting for a spark.

Part III- Post Spark-ulation
So then what? Is it too risky? Maybe it's just that I told myself I wouldn't... along with a lot of other things. Keep it light. Go on dates, but don't get serious. Is that a real thing or did that just seem like a really smart thing to say? Don't worry, I'm  keeping it light, but I just want to know where certain hesitations come from.

I think three parts is enough.